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Goodbye to the 10 year old habit.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

It's been 3 days since my last cigarette. This time, it's gonna work because I'm doing it for myself and not for anyone else. Sure, I get the urges and the crazies sometimes and it's a real awful mental and emotional struggle. Sometimes, I get this mental image of wanting to smash myself against a wall. Yeah, it's that insane. The withdrawal symptoms are just as awesome.

I can has hadaches.

 The attitude from hell.

I stuff my mouth with just about anything. (Don't even start getting funny ideas. Hell hath no fury like a woman going through cold turkey)

Major spacing out. Dude… wait… fuck… what…?

Dizziness/numbness/lightheadedness almost similar to a trippy feeling. (why the fuck do hippie-looking characters keep crossing my mind??)

The constant urge to punch someone in the face.

Mental cussing galore. Hahaha! Fuck.
 

 

I am so gonna fucking make it. So help me God.

 

`sj

 

Posted by sharonjoy at 7:09 am | permalink

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Give some tips because I really want to dump this stupid addiction to nicotine…

If only I can find a plausible reason… you know to convince myself.

So, good luck sharon. Good Luck.

Posted by lyn at October 31, 2007, 2:43 am

Hi Lyn, It’s been 10 days since my last cigarette. Sometimes, I feel like it’s a dream… For 10 years, those little white sticks have been my constant companion, both in good times and bad times. I came to a point to treat it as some sort of best friend.

How I’m doing it? I keep telling myself, that I am stronger than these little temptation. It’s a lot of personal berating and takes almost superhuman will-power. But if you really think you are stronger than those little white fuckers, you are.

Posted by sharonjoy at October 31, 2007, 7:36 am

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