Funny grin on my funny face.
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
It's funny… how a "You have a new message from…" can make me jump out of my skin from excitement… and make me smile and daydream for days at end. I am such a funny girl.
Goodbye to the 10 year old habit.
It's been 3 days since my last cigarette. This time, it's gonna work because I'm doing it for myself and not for anyone else. Sure, I get the urges and the crazies sometimes and it's a real awful mental and emotional struggle. Sometimes, I get this mental image of wanting to smash myself against a wall. Yeah, it's that insane. The withdrawal symptoms are just as awesome.
I can has hadaches.
The attitude from hell.
I stuff my mouth with just about anything. (Don't even start getting funny ideas. Hell hath no fury like a woman going through cold turkey)
Major spacing out. Dude… wait… fuck… what…?
Dizziness/numbness/lightheadedness almost similar to a trippy feeling. (why the fuck do hippie-looking characters keep crossing my mind??)
The constant urge to punch someone in the face.
Mental cussing galore. Hahaha! Fuck.
I am so gonna fucking make it. So help me God.
`sj
